When you see yourself, you’re trapped in the control room. Your higher sensitivity means you see every detail of insecurity, every failed intention, every shameful thought etc. You can literally see the gap between the inner mess and the curated “Me” you present to the world. You’re somewhat conscious of the fact you are playing a “character” here on Earth. And to love that part of yourself feels like you’re loving a fraud, because you know the backstage chaos. It feels like self deception. But, when you see a friend, you see the opposite. You see a completely flowing being with a history, a heart and context. You witness their actions from the outside, and you grant them the mystery of their inner world. You forgive them because you see their actions as expressions of their infinite being, not the totality of it. Your backstage chaos is proof that you’re having a very normal human experience. The “control room” you’re trapped in is the movie theatre of your awareness. You need to give yourself the same love and grace that you so easily grant the people around you. And you’re not a fraud for having a backstage pass, in fact, you’re human because you do. Stop apologising and holding shame for the backstage mess. The clutter and the unused scripts are your workshop; this is where the work gets done, this is where CREATION takes place. Your worth is not the performance; it’s the courage to actually walk on stage, again and again, from the messy reality of your control room. That is the real work, that is where self love can be found.
Merry Christmas. This year, may you all receive the quiet gift of a backstage pass: the permission to witness your own heart with the same generous mystery you hold for others.
Much love ❤️🎁
